Life

I realized something else not long ago. I realized that no matter how you feel about someone else, no matter what you want from them, people are only willing to give so much of themselves. I finally woke up and realized that my happiness is most important. I also realized that I'm not #thatchick. I can't sit and wait patiently like a trained puppy, creep around like it doesn't matter, and only get whatever crumbs someone is willing to share with me.

I need and deserve the most out of life. I shed a few tears, but I feel okay. This is really hard but I'm going to be okay. This has gone on far too long, and it's past time to close that chapter of my life. I will remember and cherish it but I need to live my life and really live, not sit around waiting and hoping for a chance that's never going to come. Boy the lessons I am learning not at the hands of others but through my own life experiences...#definitelyNOTthejumpoff